So who fell asleep and missed The Office today? YEAH ME. Which if you know me at all and my love for The Office this is a big deal. Pam finally confessed! PAM TOLD JIM AND I MISSED IT. Godfuckdammit. iTunes better get it's ass in gear and upload that asap not in two days. Fuck two days. I need to see that episode. It looks so badass. Especially the JAM part. I support JAM forever. Hell to the yes.

Why am I awake at the ungodly hour of 3:03 in the morning? Previous said nap. So now I'm all wide awake and bored because nobody is ever around at this fine hour. Fucking' a. Well I'm not even usually around at this hour, only on weekends. If I had my way it'd be more often. My natural inner clock is a night owl. I'd sleep during the day like a vampire if I could but I can't so I don't. Fate's a bitch. You know what's worse? When you realize that the shitty thing going on right now in life is due to the shitty thing you did awhile back. Karma, people. It's the true bitch of the universe. Don't even get me started. You always get back what you send out and now I'm just getting mine. It's all good. I'm coping. Better now that I figured it out too.

Random thought: I keep saying rock on and it reminds me of Maxx. She said that whole "Rock off. We have to save the valuable rock power." or whatever it was and now whenever I say rock on I think of that. It's weird. I kind of miss her, I do admit. While we have both changed to the point I'm not sure we'll ever be friends like we once were, every now and then I feel it's kind of sad we don't talk at all anymore. Things were never the same after that one big blowout and things now are really really far gone. It's something in the past and I'm okay with that. It's more of a nostalgic feeling I have now. I always feel nostalgic.

Speaking of, why the hell can't I ever get over that Nine Inch Nails song? I swear to god it's going to haunt me for the rest of eternity. Maybe I do need therapy. Is it just me or is it extremely hard to forget some people? There's this one person, we haven't even spoken in years. But every now and then I think of him. It's a history I haven't been able to shake. Admittley I've come a long long way over the years on getting over this. It's just not over yet and it's been so long. Why the hell does it take so long? I feel like I should be over it, moved on, never think of it again. But I know that's not logical. That time in my life changed things and it's always going to be an important memory. It's not going to go away and really I am at a good place with it.

Tomorrow I'm going out because for once Ford Motor Company loves me and I have my Friday's back. Friday is totally a day for the living. Maybe some Uptown again. I like the stores. Maybe more updating? What the hell. I've apparently been on a roll. It's a summer miracle. I updated LJ! Rejoice.